A Heavy Day

Please excuse my lack of an interesting post today, not that most them are really all that interesting to begin with. Anyway, enough of my rambling. Yesterday, was a trying day. We had a family member unexpectedly take their life, while there's is so much more to the story I'll save you the details. It's simply a sad sad situation, and as you can imagine there are about a hundred things going on at once.

So I woke up yesterday, emotional tired and exhausted. My husband and I went to CrossFit as usual...and while this workout wasn't anything out of the ordinary it seemed physically much harder because my body wasn't having it. But instead of giving up and crying (which I totally felt like doing, and by the way you can't cry at CrossFit, it's like a commandment or something), I just got mad and finished the darn exercise. Only after finishing the workout did I finally let the tears just stream from my face. Most would look at me and think it was because of the workout, it was just tough, and in part I was upset because physically it wasn't my best day, in fact since being at CF it was probably my worst, but it was mostly due to the emotion and unrest I held inside.

The rest of the day at work was about the same. Forgot my breakfast, stopped for a nasty frozen then reheated breakfast sandwich (not g-free and tasted awful, but I was in desperate need of protein after the workout), trying to help console loved ones, all while trying to make it through a terribly slow day at work. Ugh! Seriously not the bright chipper day I would have liked.

Needless to say we all encounter moments or day in our lives similar to this. Days where we just don't understand why God brings us to where we are. What we also don't realize is where He is taking us. We don't see the whole story, the big picture. Our journey, whether good or bad, is all a part of our ultimate sanctification, our road to becoming more like Him. And we aren't alone in our pain and suffering, others around us suffer as well, some in different ways than others. We aren't clones, we are all individuals created in His image. We can't understand what someone is going through, but we can feel their hurt! I know I do! Our suffering helps us see God clearer, helps us trust Him in greater ways than we can possibly comprehend, helps us share our weaknesses and burdens with our community, and ultimately draws us closer to Him.

It's okay to grieve, to have off days, even to feel tired and exhausted and just emotionally worn out, but we can't give up. It's not the end, we can't see the big picture, but we should instead look to Him because He can!

{Image Credit: The Everygirl Tumblr via Coffee Stained Cashmere}